Sunday, August 21, 2016

I honestly don't know where to start this message to you all...

I honestly don't know where to start this message to you all... I have avoided this blog for months now. An hour ago, I was randomly reading the bollywood section on IF when I saw Barun's birthday thread. Of course I couldn't help but click it and out of sheer nostalgia I clicked after that on IPKKND forum. And then I saw this thread. Which I couldn't believe was there--with my name! I thought you'd all moved on by now to different writers and stories--there are so many! But maybe I was wrong...

I'm SO sorry for being gone for so veryyy long. Trust me, it was not my intention. 

Started off months back as me being upset and frustrated after yet another copying incident and harassing emails from the person who copied me. I've dealt with things like that unfortunately frequently as many of you are aware and I thought I'd gotten over it but this time it really crossed the line. I realized writing which had always been my stress buster, something i looked forward to, had morphed into something I dreaded. 

I LOVED writing about arhi (still do!), I LOVED the interaction with those who read my stuff, I knew you so many of you by name (still do!) but along the way my love for writing was steadily destroyed.

When I decided after my last update to take a break for a while and get away from all the stress, I thought I'd be away a few weeks. But somehow, combined with work, health issues, and a busy personal life, it became months.

I wish it hadn't been so. 

I posted a quick message about this on my Facebook page months ago but I should have posted it here and on my blog.

To all those who worried, sent me messages or tried to get in touch with me, thank you. It is only because of genuine readers/friends like you that I kept this blog up at all. So many times I debated deleting it all but I couldn't do that...never... And then it became so long that I wondered if continuing even mattered because surely most readers had moved on. But I see now I was wrong to assume that.

I hope some of those amazing readers/friends are still following me because guess what, my love of writing is something no harassing emails could destroyBig smile

I have been writing. Not as often as before but regularly. Not always on Arhi but on characters I love (the Raizadas forever being at the top of that list). I have every intention of finishing Secret Passion and making Fateful Love/Desert Heat/Shameless available to all those who want them. They have been edited many times from the rough drafts you all read, enhanced by your feedback, and with additional material. 

This will all take time given my busy schedule but it is something I look forward to. Till then, I plan to update Secret Passion for you all very soon. 


ps. 2 million views?!!! You all are <3

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Secret Passion Updated! Finally!

Really really sorry about the delay everyone, 
I got caught up with life, work, and something else I'm writing.
But of course ArHi and IPKKND are a priority too. 
Hope the wait is worth it. 
...Enjoy Secret Passion...
Where do Arnav and Khushi go from here? Anything is possible...dun dun dun
ps. feel free to leave your thoughts on this post or on the comment thread, I read both.
pss. special shout out to the anonymous reader who wrote "update" like a zillion times on the last post:) Hope you like this update!

Monday, November 23, 2015


I know many of you are expecting an update and you're right one is due 
but how can I be expected to concentrate on writing when we just got a new mini episode of IPKKND after 3 long years??!!
I will try to finish the next chapter of Secret Passion this week still
but it might be delayed with Arhi being back and thanksgiving coming up.

I'm sooo happy to see Arnav like this: calm, relaxed, reflective and very much in love. 
Next episode more of wifey I hope <3
*off to fangirl some more*
ps. some asked in their comments about details on these reunion episodes. Appartently it's 8 mini episodes that will be uploaded every Tues and Sat exclusively on HotStar showing Arhi 3 years later<3

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Secret Passion Ch 37 Teaser

Hi everyone,
First of all, to all readers in France, many of whom I know personally, I hope you and your family and friends are safe and unharmed. #prayersforparis
Thanks everyone for all the amazing feedback after the last chapter. So much unfolded and so much has happened in SP since Episode 1, but it amazes me that so many of you remember all the details and past events and are trying to piece it all together. You're right, there are clues sprinkled in from the start and it will all connect--eventually.
Teaser below is dedicated to my dear and very curious friend Tiffany--you know why:)
ps. Have you all seen the new arshi promo? <3 Can't stop watching it. So exciting!

Arnav slammed his palm against one of the stone pillars bordering Shantivan’s massive back gardens. “How can you not see it, Uncle? There’s a pattern to this. This keeps happening to me.”
The older man struggled to understand. “What keeps happening?”
“THIS!” Arnav cried, his eyes wild and rimmed with a bone-deep sense of loss. “I keep losing the people I care about...The people I love. One by one they’re taken from me and I can do nothing about it--absolutely nothing!”
Uncle kept silent as he forced him to sit down, releasing a deep sigh. “Arnav… I know better than anyone how much you have suffered and at such a young age too. Orphaned, sent to RITA, and now poor Anjali’s gone…I still cannot believe it. But son, all of this is simply a tragedy. A horrific tragedy. There is nothing you could have done to prevent it. Are you listening to me? Arnav, it’s not your fault. None of it is.”
But his godson seemed to not accept the truth of his words, his features appearing harsh in the dim light. “This is more than a tragedy...more than a coincidence… For the longest time, I thought maybe we, the Raizadas, were just cursed. Unlucky when it came to love and family. But these past few days have proven that it’s more than that. Di…” He winced. “Someone murdered her because she was close to me. Because I cared about her. I know it.”
“Stop now, Arnav. That is crazy talk and--” Realizing what he’d said, Uncle looked up startled. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean--”
“It’s okay,” Arnav said, his jaw clenched. “You can call me crazy, many have, but that doesn’t change my gut feeling on this. Someone is out there going after my loved ones. You can’t convince me otherwise, Uncle. I wish that cowardly son of a bitch would just confront me, but he or she goes after my family instead. Every single time. And that’s what scares me most,” he confided, his face lined with tension. “The only family I have left now is the person who means the world to me, whom I can’t live without… If anything happened to Khushi or the twins…” He closed his eyes, swallowing thickly.
Uncle laid a calming hand on his forearm. “Nothing will happen to them. We won’t allow it to. We’ll hire the best people out there to protect them.”
“I’ve done that already. I’ve done everything in my power to keep them safe but I still haven’t been able to get my hands on the person or persons behind this. Don’t you see, Uncle? Khushi has been in danger from the moment I stepped into her life. Before she met me there were no stalkers, no threats, no hints of violence in her life in Lucknow.”
Uncle knew him well enough to realize that arguing would be futile. His godson had made up his mind and there would be no changing it. “So what have you decided?”
Arnav stared out at the glimmering surface of the pool nearby--the pool where his wife had nearly lost her life. The memory cemented his plans. “I’m going to do what I should have done a year ago. I’m going to stop being selfish. Fact is Khushi is not safe with me. She won’t be as long as everyone knows how much I love her. I have walk away. I have to let her go. Forever.”
Uncle looked across at him, stricken. “What are you suggesting? You can’t live much less function without that girl and you’re thinking of casting her out of your life?”
“It’s the only way,” he insisted in a resolute tone. “The only way of keeping her safe.”
“She won’t allow it. She’ll fight for you, for your marriage.”
Running a hand through his hair, Arnav shuddered. He did not need to be reminded of Khushi’s strength and overwhelming love. He knew better than anyone how she would react. Uncle was right. His wife would not allow their marriage to fall apart so easily. She’d never understand or accept his reasoning. Never admit that she was safer without him than with him.
“When will you tell her?” Uncle asked with marked disapproval. “Tonight?”
Arnav shook his head. “Not tonight…In the morning…” Though Khushi did not yet realize it, tonight was their last night together and for these last remaining precious hours, he wanted for once no darkness to mar their lives. To lose himself in the fantasy of happily ever after…something he doubted he’d ever have now.
He felt as if he was being hurled back into the cold, dingy cell at RITA all over again, except it was much worse this time. Because without Khushi and their children, he’d be broken, as good as dead. Unlike before, he knew now what it meant to love, to lose yourself in a passion so tender, so brilliant that nothing could ever even begin to rival it. How the hell would he survive without his wife? How would he let her go? How, damn it, how?
He’d often told Khushi that it was them versus the world, that nothing and no one could tear them apart. And that was undoubtedly true. No one could separate them--except for themselves.

To be continued...
You will find out soon what Mrs. Raizada has to say for all of this;)